Are you reading this because you are wondering why you are grieving the end of your toxic relationship and, perhaps, feeling like a loser because of it?
You should be overjoyed right? You just escaped a toxic relationship, after all that time suffering, and now you are free to live your life and be happy.
Instead, you find yourself grieving.
I bet it’s super confusing and painful and you just want it to end.
I believe that understanding why you are grieving the end of your toxic relationship is a big step towards letting go of the pain and moving on. To that end, below are 5 reasons why you are experiencing grief after surviving a toxic relationship and how to cope so that you can move forward and be happy.
#1 — You truly believed things were fixable.
So many of my clients tell me that they won’t walk away from their abusive relationships because they aren’t quitters.
They truly believe that if they just love their person enough, if they stand by their side in spite of abusive behaviors, that their person will change and they will be happy again.
Here you are, on the other side of your breakup, and you are grieving because you weren’t able to fix them, or the relationship. You might feel like you have let everyone down. You might even feel like you have abandoned your person.
Let me tell you that, no matter how much you might have tried, your person wasn’t fixable unless they wanted to be fixed. And you are probably grieving this fact — that you couldn’t save the relationship, or someone you once loved, and that makes you beyond sad.
I would encourage you to let yourself off the hook. No one can change someone who doesn’t want to be changed. You didn’t fail. You couldn’t have made any change alone, no matter how hard you tried to do so.
#2 — You blame yourself.
One of the most insidious things about a toxic relationship is that, after a while, we start to blame ourselves for everything that is going wrong.